Friday, December 12, 2008

being late.....being numb

I am Late.

Well this is not the first time that I have been late. I have been late before.... actually many times..... But this is different.

My last post was on November, 24th, 2008. Everything was normal....you know like everyone wants things to be great in their lives....well the fact is that they just want things to be normal.

Normal is great.

So it was normal. Two birthdays were lined up. My Little Sister and my Mom. (November 26th and November 28th).... Even when a loved one is away, things can be normal. Because you know that you will eventually meet. This was the first time that my sister wasn't with me/us on her birthday. She was/is in UK. We called her, we wished her. Normal.... Love, a temporary separation.....phone calls, distance, different time zones ...

normal.....





You all know whats coming up next.....unfortunately those innocent people didn't....

I am late.

I am late in expressing my feelings (#$%@&*: I dont even know if that is the word I wanna use) for what happened in Mumbai on 26th November (and thereafter).

I am Late because I don't know what I should write about.

Veteran actor Anupam Kher hasn’t been able come to terms with the Mumbai terror attacks like any one of us. The actor has expressed his helplessness and anger at what happened in Mumbai.

In an interview to a news daily, the actor gushed “It left me numb, then angry and helpless.



In a similar fashion many other celebrities and known business leaders have reacted to the Mumbai terror attacks.

I am no celebrity.

"Normal" man is numb.

I feel like a failure..... because I try to write something intelligent here.... you know about politics, national security, armed forces, police...... but I can't....I just can't. I want to ...may be give some direction or...express my anger...but I can't.

My "words" and way too "normal".......

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14 comments:

zephyr said...

u knw... I havent written a word about the attacks because I am sick at heart... because I know this isnt the first time we have been attacked and I feel helpless... And I have no clue what to say... sometimes I want to close my eyes ears and my heart to everything... shrivel up in corner..

Thank u for finally expressing what I have been feeling since so many days...

brocasarea said...

dudu why u feel so??...celebrities are humans too....so we can feel the same thing!!:)...tc

Richa said...

well, u say u r late.. but i a m nowhere near it.. i havent n wont write anything writ baout it..

cuz i dunno how to react if ths numb..

it happens to all of us..
i m no intellectual, i dunno wat can v do to not have things like tht again.. but i want it to stop...

Express said...

Yea, I wrote a poat when it started...but then I cudnt write on it.
And man , ive seen parts of it,
its impossible 2 come on terms with whole of it.
just impossible.

brocasarea said...

[read my post on blog anniversary and be a part of it:)]

ranjana said...

sometimes words fail us. the anger and anguish can't be expressed in words all the time. but i understood the unwritten words and share the feeling

Emaan said...

may peace prevail.

If people spend more time with kids, the world would be a better place.

Or like some great thinker once said- before you do anything ask yourself, will the children benefit from this?

Akshay said...

zephyr : Thanks

Akshay said...

brocasarea: hey.... I guess its my anger.... doing better now....

Akshay said...

Richa : it needs to stop....for sure..

Akshay said...

Express: its impossible indeed...

Akshay said...

ranjana : thanks

Akshay said...

Emaan

may peace prevail.... amen

Shruti said...

awww...
I felt horribly bad too.. all Mumbaikars did.. :( so what if we didn't have smart, politically correct words?